I had a very desperate moment this morning.
Somewhere between the unending laundry, the overwhelming sense of LIFE and the responsibilities of all of it left me in a place of absolute desperation. For whatever reason, it all seemed to close in on me at the same time.
I climbed out of bed (15 minutes later than I usually do) and wrapped myself up in my housecoat. We left our windows cracked last night and it was chilly inside the house. I wanted nothing more than to stay curled up in bed. I didn’t want to get dressed and go deal with the drop off line ladies at school…all prim and proper and dressed in their work clothes. I honestly didn’t even want to wake my kids up. I wanted to let them sleep and disappear back under the blankets myself.
Life makes me tired.
I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels that way. I posted a question on our Facebook page the other day about what you would do if you could take any vacation you wanted. I think most people would agree that a vacation away from the demands of this life of ANY kind would be a little slice of heaven on Earth.
We were talking in our women’s Bible study last Tuesday night about Christ’s life on this Earth. If you spend much time in the Gospels reading and studying about His life here, you will notice that He was never rushed.
He was never in a hurry.
He was never overwhelmed.
He was never unprepared or cranky or under-rested.
And yet he had the weight of the whole entire world on His shoulders. He bore the sin of all of humanity. We use the phrase “the weight of the world” when we reference the struggles in our lives and the never ending to-do lists that crowd our schedule…but He really knew what that meant.
He really felt that…the weight of the world. The weight of the sin that you and I commit. Right there on His shoulders. Through His hands and into His feet.
It’s okay to feel desperate. It’s okay to have those bad days…those days where the house is too cool and the floor is cold beneath your feet. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed.
But remind yourself when you feel that way that we don’t even come close to understanding what Christ endured that day on Calvary. He’s opened my heart and my mind to realizing that if He can bear that kind of burden for me, then maybe I can usher myself out of bed with a little bit more enthusiasm every day.
When you go through the day today and feel exhausted…when the kids aren’t listening, the budget isn’t balancing and you feel like you just can’t go on anymore, let these words resonate through your heart…
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. -Pslams 46:1