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50 Shades of (Alaskan) Grey

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  1. Nikki Brown says:

    I know what you’re going through. The first few winters in Alaska were very hard on me. Before leaving after 12 years, it was still hard every winter. Sending you lots of good vibes to get you through this winter. Sunshine in the future!

  2. Natalie says:

    Oh, winter is hard for me too…and our winters are nothing like yours. I love your honesty and I’m glad you can express it so openly. xo

  3. Dina says:

    Hang in there Mama! I know it’s very hard to live in a cold place like that! When we were stationed in Misawa, Japan. I felt that way my very first winter there. I was over 7000 miles from home and alone, no boyfriend, no family, no body. I didn’t even have any friends when I first got stationed there. It was so scary and dreary and sad. I’m shocked I made it on the other side honestly. But slowly I began to build that military family and found my future husband. Did the winters there get any easier? No….but having love and friends around me made each winter there a lot better. I’m glad the weather is getting better there!!!! I’ll send you some sunshine from Tucson!! (But not today because we are having “winter weather” which is a very small chance it’ll snow for like 10 minutes…)

  4. Elizabeth says:

    I just realized that I’ve been following your blog basically since you moved to Alaska, which means that I’ve been reading your posts for over two years! You have grown so much as a business owner, a mom, a woman … I hope your visit down south again restores your spirit and touches your soul. Sending prayers and warm thoughts your way!

  5. Jennifer says:

    Oh honey. Big hugs to you. I have no idea how you’ve managed, and I’m sure it is unbelievably hard. I wish I had some really good advice, but all I can say is watch the height of the boys. As they grow by leaps and bounds you will see that the next year will fly.

  6. Arnebya says:

    If I’m hating 40 degrees and occasional sunshine in DC, I can only imagine how the cold and grey days of Alaska would affect a person, especially with a newborn and the time it takes for our bodies/emotions to get back in sync. I’m glad you’re in tune with your triggers and are writing it out. You have no clue how many people you may touch/help with this post. And I’ll echo Laura: you are a beautiful, amazing person, wife, and mother. Your design and photography skills are kick ass and your writing, especially writings that evoke such feeling (like this one) is excellent. Hang on.

  7. Doctor G says:

    My husband spent 3 summers working for the Forest Service in Alaska before I met him. He STILL wants to go back and winter there. And, wow – I want to support him but I don’t wanna do it! You are making the best of a hard situation, these are very real problems. The only thing I can think to say is heartfelt – thank you and your family for your service and sacrifice.

  8. Laura says:

    So much love for you.

    All of it is hard. I get it. Living next to the ocean here in Canada is a lot of the same. Lots of dreary, cold, rainy, foggy, and snowy days. Lots of people deal with SAD (seasonal affective disorder). Top it up with all of the post-baby feelings and the exhaustion and the extra work that comes with being a Mom. It is dang near impossible to get through each day unscathed.

    My hope for you is that you will cover yourself in grace. Remember that it took you 9 months to get ready for this baby. You’re allowed (at least) 9 months to get back to normal afterwards. Don’t fret about those extra 10lbs. (I’m still dealing with my extra “let’s call it 10” lbs). And don’t put so much pressure on yourself in other aspects too.

    You’re awesome and beautiful and insanely productive and have an incredible perspective. Love and grace to you, friend.

  9. Greta says:

    This has been a hard winter for me, too, but I’m nowhere near surrounded by the environment that you are. I can’t imagine living with such a lack of sunlight….sometimes it’s the only thing that makes the cold bearable to me. I hope you have a good, warm, sunny, hot summer and a tolerable last year way up north.

  10. That must be so tough. I moved from a place that was grey all winter to one that’s cold and snowy but sunny. Cold and snowy and grey would be a really hard combination. Here’s hoping that light finds you again.

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